Understanding Me

Such hatred burns a fire into the soul I've never seemed to have
I've never felt such a sting inside my heart
Hearts pump emptiness into my dark world
That made every bit of sense to me

My fire runs deeper than you could've ever imagined
You've felt it's burn against your skin plenty of times
I know that's nothing new
So why do you continue to come closer

The hell we share was only meant for one
And only one
My head still spins at the thought of it
The thought of sharing that with you

Sharing everything that is me with you
That's impossible
When I could never admit such a thing
Even if I wanted to

The flames dig further and further into me
And I'll never stop them from coming
You fought them off as long as you could
But they'll never cease without my word

And I've accepted that unturning fate of mine
To live in an unending nightmare
Where you never leave
My one personal exsistence

With or without you doesn't particularly matter to me anymore
At least i'll never say if if it really did matter
Regardless, I'd wnt to remember you the way you are now
Before it all takes control of me

When hatred never truely exsisted
And love only remained
Those times never happened
The times I can't feel anymore

But without you I'm conflicted
Fighting between a distant fantasy
And an even closer reality
I'm plagued to only wonder if I could admit these things to you...